heartbroken

i guess this will be my 1st and last time mentioning him in my blog... it's the 1st day of 2005... but it's as if the last day of the world for me.. he's attached... i was blog-hopping awhile ago where by i came across his girlfriend's blog and found out that they're an item already... *sighs.. although i should be mentally prepared that this day will come sooner or later as people around me has been telling me how close they are... i thought i could take it well... but all along... i'm bluffing to myself... i can't.. i simply can't... he made me wait 1 year for him... i couldn't move on... because he made me promise him that i'll wait... i honoured my promise.. but instead.. he forgot all about it... 1 whole year... he treat me like an stranger... he didn't even bother to say a "hi" when he saw me or a "bye" when he saw me leaving the school... it's so heartbreaking... but still, i waited on... hopefully one day... he'll come to me and say.. "i remember our promise.." but i guess i'm simply the most idiotic fool in this world to believe in him... and now... he found his girl... they are happily attached... whereas i'm still here... hesitating to move on... no worries... after today... i'll find my new life... i'll let that promise go... i'll find a someone who won't make me promise him anything... keeping a promise that someone had long forgotten is a miserable thing...


HIM: i'm not prepared to be in a relationship yet... promise me you'll give me time and wait for me..
ME: i promise...