mama

japanese lesson - not attending

i resent the idea of waking up, having to face the problems that is left by yesterday.

after a whole night, my mind is still in a whirl.

all i want is people around me to stop quarrelling... period.

in the past, when i have any troubles, i get to enjoy the privilege of running up to my mama and start weeping as though the world is coming to an end and after the havoc that i've created, peace resumed.

as i grow older, my mama start to leave me alone to make decisions as i'm already old enough to do that. i'm expected to make good decisions. but the higher the expectations, the greater the disappointment. all those decisions that i've made turned out to be bad choices. at this point of time, how i wish that i've never grown up. in the least, when i weep, my mama is there to tell me, never mind, things will be ok. as usual, when mama says that, peace always resumed, without fail.

as an 18 year old kid, i don't expect my mum to clear every shit that i've left behind because it's MY shit.

it doesn't matter who it came from, as long as it's not from you, it doesn't in the world, helps.

i'll reply to e-mails.
i'll reply to messages.
but not in the meanwhile...