him, only him

for the one last time i guess...

i confessed my everything to her... i broke down... i realised, how important she is to me... she saw my tears and try to joke about it... but she herself is also crying... i'm sorry, my friend...

she's joy... the wonderful girl in my life...

thank you... and yet, sorry...

=)

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i gave him a deadline... 31st jan 2006...

yui and shu ting keep asking me to send him aonther letter in case he didn't received the other one...

i've no courage to do so...

what if... he didn't want to reply me on the purpose? it's a torture... to check the mailbox everyday but to realise that there is no letters for you at all... NOTHING from him... i don't expect much from him... just a letter.. is that so difficult...?? am i wrong about him right from the start...?? am i...??

*do you know you're torturing me like there's no tomorrow...?? i seriously HATE you for doing that... don't keep me antcipating what is your next move... don't keep me waiting as if it's a MUST... please... tell me what you want me to do...? i'm lost... i've perservere for so long... surpressing my real feelings... forcing myself to cheer up... telling myself, that's hope where i see none... what am i suposed to do...??*

i've been telling myself to let go... but it seems impossible... i'm pinning so much for him...

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i've got dan's number... been messaging each other for this 2 days... but he's not a good guy at all... he's just trying to make a fool out of me i guess...

i was once, in a state of confusion... but now i'm clear, i only want him... only him...